Being Free.

This post is simply thoughts that’s been rambling in my mind for the last few days. So I dedicate this post to myself. I know I need to practice what I preach (or write) so this post will be my constant reminder of that. This will be my constant reminder that I can’t stress about things that’s not in my hands nor can I stress about imperfection. Thank you for baring with me and understanding…

 

We often struggle with being expressive. We’re are scared of upsetting our peers or making any type of mistake. Some of us stress ourselves out because we don’t like to ask for help or we feel like things need to be done perfect. We’re trapped in our minds. We’re not as free as society tells us we are. According to Webster dictionary, the definition of Freedom is, “the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.” Although we may have the actually “freedom” to do everything that’s defined, we often don’t…

All my life I’ve had issues with telling people how I feel. I’m quick to think that what I have to say wouldn’t make any type of difference. Besides that, I’ve been scared to hurt someone’s feelings. It’s like I focus on everything and everyone but myself. I was trapped in this dark hole because so. I begin to isolate myself from people. Figured if I did that, than I couldn’t make any mistakes. I was wrong. I was making the biggest mistake could ever. I was making the mistake of not pleasing myself and not being honest to myself. I was a prisoner to my own brain.

This hurt me both physically and mentally. I would over eat and randomly get extremely emotional. Eventually, I would have stomach pains and migraines. This is all because I held in how I felt about things. I had writers’ block so I couldn’t write. It was meant for me to express everything verbally. I think if I could go back in time I would have done some sort of therapy. We all need to talk to someone. I had to train myself to not let peoples’ feedback upset me. We won’t always like what someone has to say, but re should respect the fact that they told us in the first place. It’s slippery I know. Slippery because people does two things: 1. they mistake expression as being offensive and 2. Some people use expression to BE offensive. Both very childish and extremely common. Whether you believe it or not, you can definitely tell the difference.

Take the time to tell a love one or any friend that they can tell you what’s on their mind without any judgement. Build that trust and overall comfort. Allow you (and yourself) freedom. #thisiswhatdepressionlookslike

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